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"Consider how the lilies grow. They do not labor or spin. Yet I tell you, not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these." Luke 12:27 (NIV)

Monday, April 11, 2011

Second Thoughts

For a while now, I've been thinking about changing course. Kiddies are growing up and I'm kinda itching to go back to work. Something called "mortgage" is nudging me out the door.
But the industry I used to work in, happens (sob) to be in a depressed state at the moment for a host of reasons and as a mum I'm trying to find something that fits in with the children's schedule without losing my eye on the 9 year old's progress.
So I've been floundering a bit.

Through a friend of a friend, I went along today to have a look an English Conversation Club at the University of Qld to see if I want to become involved as a volunteer tutor. Quite frankly, it has made me rethink the whole thing. I only went to have a look, see... to get a feel of the place... and stay out of the way as much as possible. However, due to the size of the group etc etc, I volunteered to join the conversation and in no time, I got back "that o'l feeling". It was a buzz. I really, really miss being in a classroom full of adults talking adult stuff.
As I was driving back home, I started to think out loud. "I am too experienced and too good at this to give it up entirely." So I started to "birth" a few ideas while zipping across the Riverside Expressway.

The timing of all of this, however, is terrible. I have such a busy week lined up. My week is full with meetings, Bible study and really important church stuff. And yet these ideas are floating around inside my head wanting to be pinned down.
I foresee that I'm going to have plenty of middle-of-the-night, 3 am meditations.

I don't know if I'm supposed to do the Gideon-I-need-a-sign thing... put out fleeces and hope God will do his "thing" with flashing neon lights. Gideon was a nervous wreck... not that I blame him, going up a hard bitten enemy with zero experience... In the end, it wasn't Gideon who defeated the Midianites, it was God... all God. Gideon got in on the action purely by the grace of God. His only qualification was that he had no qualification. We generally humans aren't very good with new experiences that take us out of our comfort zone and sometimes we need a Bilbo Baggins type kick to get us out of our comfy hobbit hole. Sometimes we just need to make a decision and get over our dithering. Sometimes it's about embarking on new experiments and hoping that one hasn't been too presumptuous.

I've been yawning almost non-stop for the last 5 minutes. I suppose it's my cue to hit the sack. Interesting day... gotta sleep on it.
And pray about it.

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2 comments:

  1. God doesn't always give us a definite yes or no - although that would be very, very nice. If it stands up biblically, I have found that often the only 'sign' I need is to just go for it, even if it is going out of my comfort zone. All the best with your new ventures! Exciting times!

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  2. Thanks, Debbie.
    Yeah... I think I'm just not too confident in doing what I've known for a while that I should be doing.
    I just wanted a job that I could go to and then go home. Going independent or starting something takes too much effort!

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